I found
today’s entry in MUFHH encouraging, but probably for the wrong reason. I have always had very “fuzzy” ambition. I have proceeded through my life meandering
from one thing to another, and looking back I have often thought I should have
picked a career and stuck with it early.
I thought I was with ministry but found out otherwise. I have been the longest at my current job,
and I have been at my current position the whole time. I feel some shame from that because I think
that I should be “further along” in my career path at my age. But this entry begins by saying otherwise.
Wanting to
get ahead and promoted because I think that’s what supposed to happen is
different than having some burning passion for advancement fueling schemes and
so on. When my work offered to let me
stay on and work remotely, that was all the promotion I needed. My wife probably makes more money than I do
with all the promotions she received to come out here, but I’m happy doing the
work I do like I’m doing it. It’s not
like I’m likely to get an offer to move up in my world into something executive
or managerial; not working remotely like this, I’d have to return. I can’t, or won’t. Either way, I’m at my ceiling, and that’s
cool.
The way
Chambers puts it, if I’m not able to articulate my “aim in life” I am more
available to my Master for His aim for my life.
That sums it up. He brought my
family out here and provided everything to make it happen. And He provided at an astonishing level. We wanted for nothing. We have had to reduce down the stuff of our
lives, but He even provided for that.
But I was ready to move without His provision being obvious. I really didn’t see some of what He had in
store until I surrendered my attempt to provide for myself. I had to be willing to move with no provision
in sight to an area without jobs, and I was.
And I say
this not to brag. It was a long hard
work of my Master to bring me to such a place, and what happens here is really
beyond my understanding. I don’t get it
most of the time, and my only contribution is reply to my Master, “Okay,
whatever, let’s go” which is not that huge a leap of faith really. It’s just I wasn’t even at that place not so
long ago. So, this is really not much to
my credit. I simply became willing to
watch what my Master would do, and will do.
I suppose that is a leap of faith for me, but I know plenty of others
for whom that has been a way of life.
Not having
my own agenda means that I am available for my Master’s agenda. That’s the point I walked away with from
Chambers’ entry. I look at my life and
see that this point has proved true in my life.
And because I have seen the truth of it, I have also been blessed to see
my Master’s hand do the amazing things He has.
I also look forward to what happens next. I have my multi-tool, my steel-toed insulated
boots, old baggy jeans, sweatshirt, and warm hat. Time to pray!
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