Showing posts with label spiritual sonar. Show all posts
Showing posts with label spiritual sonar. Show all posts

Monday, May 9, 2011

Vision Versus Ideal

I had never considered the difference, if any, between an ideal and a vision.  I would not ordinarily place them together I suppose.  When I think of something as an ideal, I think of the “best” that something could be, which I consider unrealistic or irrational.  When I think of a vision of something, I think of the way something could be which was given or imparted from someone or somewhere else.  A vision does not, in my mind, arise from within, but is given from someone else, shared.  In my mind, I have the choice to accept or reject a vision.

These are not the dictionary definitions of these terms, but they are close.  A vision does not require an external source, I just think of it that way.  So, Chambers differentiates them by one having a moral inspiration.  He says a vision has that moral element missing in an ideal.  I suppose that may be true in a very narrow sense of both words.  Used as they are today in business and other realms, vision seems now to have some sort of meaning beyond, or distanced from, moral.

Business seeks to come up with a “Vision Statement” in order to have some sort of direction.  I don’t hear anyone seeking an “Ideal Statement” to guide themselves or others.  But such statements of vision do not have to be moral in the sense that they are about right, wrong, good, evil, or even about God in any sense.  A church might seek such a statement, but business rarely would.  So, part of my understanding of vision is tainted from this use.  But part is from experience with my Master.

Vision is something I have had at times, and each time, it has come from my Master.  I never consider something from Him as an ideal.  An ideal has this sense of unobtainable perfection to it.  But for me it also derives from within me and my ability to imagine.  That is not a great source.  A vision from my Master on the other hand has the element of attainability because it’s fruition depends on His involvement.  Such a vision has a much better imagination and creativity as its source than any ideal.

So, I suppose I agree with Chambers here.  I would not have put them together, and I would not have compared them otherwise.  But I can see the need to do so.  I held an ideal in ministry that did me in.  I had unrealistic expectations which did not come from a vision from my Master.  In fact, much of the time I prayed for vision which did not come.  My ideals fostered illusions about people, and the process of being “disillusioned” was a painful one.  That is part of what caused my crushing depression after ministry.  The loss of illusions was a necessary part of my spiritual growth, but harsh to experience.  This process has been to demolish my ideals of my life with my Master.  I have some still.  When I recognize them for what they are, I can easily surrender them, remembering the pain the last ones caused.  But recognizing them is not easy.  I like to think they are all gone.

The work of my Master in me is not complete in this area, and perhaps today I will find another ideal lurking in the deep recesses of my mind.  They are like faulty programming which keeps causing errors, but only when certain programs are run.  I don’t use those much anymore, so I still have some to find.  I guess the process is working patiently and submissively with my Master to “debug” my mind and heart.  Perhaps He is really Pest Control exterminating bugs and rodents within me.  Fumigation here I come, pardon the smell.

Oswald Chambers' "My Utmost For His Highest": May 9th.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Being Content with My Life as Plunder

The entry for today uses the last part of the verse from yesterday (we skipped the middle for some reason, perhaps tomorrow).  The King James version uses the phrase, “I will give thee thy life for a prey” and the Hebrew uses a word normally used for “plunder” or “booty”; think “spoils of war” and so on.  One interesting qualifier is the phrase, “in every place you walk there”, which to me means that Baruch could walk anywhere he chose, and Yahweh would still provide him his soul for his labor on the side of Yahweh.

Have you ever seen movies, read books, or heard stories where the captor releases a captive and when the captive asks to take something with them, the captor says, “you leave alive, that is enough” or something to that effect.  It never sounds like much of a gift, but on the other hand the captive might be seen as fortunate.  The captor still retains the tough bad-boy exterior while making a concession which is “good” in some sense.  That is not my Master in this case.  The middle portion of the verse reads, “For behold I bring in evil on all flesh.”  That term, “all flesh” would ordinarily include Baruch.  So, the gift of his life, and giving that gift in any place he goes really is a nice gift.  It is far more than the rest of the nation receives.  Jerusalem is about to be wiped out like a dish, and that is not something a priest or Levite wants to be a part of.

There is a danger I fall into indicated in the thought flitting through my mind that my Master has somehow “shorted” me.  I look around me at what others might have, or what others might be doing (even for my Master), and envy sneaks up and through my mind.  I am not content with what my Master has given to me.  Sometimes I quickly ascribe my lack to my habitual sinfulness, but not always.  Envy does sometime remain.  That is the sort of thing to which Chambers is referring in his discussion of abandonment to my Master.  If I envy what He has done for others, then I am not abandoned to my Master.  If I am abandoned to my Master, then I everything I have from Him is gravy on top of what I already have been given, my life in every place I walk.

If you have the entries from January and February, you may have run across or remember my struggles with fears.  If my Master has promised me my life in every place I walk, then I have nothing to fear.  I am about to “walk” out of this state and move, lock, stock, and barrel, several states over.  The truck is reserved.  We have two months.  Still no job, no house per se, so really we walk the rope blindfolded.  But my Master is the net below, and we follow His voice.  Guided by this “spiritual sonar” we trust in the promise from my Master that He gives us our life in every place we walk.  The hard part is that we want more than just our “life”, we want a “comfortable life”, a life of relative ease, to retire before retirement, to have all we want without accumulating wealth.  It doesn’t work that way, and we know it.  The promise from my Master is our life, not our ease or comfort.

So, today, I will seek the Kingdom of my Master and His righteousness.  I will allow my Master to provide as He sees fit.  I will be content with my life since all around me people are headed for destruction.  I will be thankful, and count the blessings along the way to work (like that I have a car to drive there – public transportation take over 2 hours to take me 8 miles and puts me there 20 minutes late, is that crazy or what?).  I will love the Lord my God with all my heart and soul today.  For He has given them to me for plunder.  Arg! Avast there matey and man the cannon!

Oswald Chambers' "My Utmost For His Highest": April 28th.